05/07/2026
Hey I’m Jordan and my problem is Jordan
I know I haven’t consistently posted for years now, and it was out of fear.
This is my real accountability post, and it started when I surrendered to my Higher Power. I finally surrendered after years of abusing my body and my soul.
Years of drinking and substance abuse lead me to be in the dark, emotional battles I’d hide from and escape with things I’m better than
My disease of more cost me relationships with loved ones, clients, friends and it ultimately cost me a solid reputation I once had. Fear and denial deprived me of seeking what I knew to years ago, but I let it.
I hid in the dark and carried all kinds of masks; but the masks I carried didn’t help me. The disease of more made me hang out with people who didn’t care about me. It caused trust issues of beloved ones, mental instability and exhaustion.
Yes I was working and I did treat my clients well, but not to100% to my capacity due to inconsistent follow ups. I’ve made a lot of excuses why my business plummeted to what it once was.
I’d rather hear the 5am birds now, because they’ve fu**ed with my mental health for years now.
I had to change, and before entertering a 35 day stint at I would have told you it was for my daughter. But it was for me and me only. So I can be better
I walked in March 27th and that was honestly the absolute best decision I’ve made in a long time. You can’t really love somebody to full capacity when you can’t love yourself. And that’s why they left me. Do I blame them? Not one bit.
That program changed my insight, my mindset from fixed to growth. My willingness to admit I was powerless was tough, but I’m so grateful I lunged into that program with intention to stop my bu****it.
This is my true accountability post, and it’s tough but I need anybody who reads with to know, if you’re suffering from the disease of more like me.. and it has cost you. You are not alone. Reach out, pick up the damn phone and reach out. Addicts are literally dying as I type this, and you are worth it.
It’s not going to be an easy path, but one day at a time
I love you all, this is my new beginning.
