23/05/2026
Speaking in front of 800 agents at AST in KL was honestly one of the most surreal moments of my life.
And truthfully, a part of me still cannot fully comprehend it.
You may read this and think this is just another motivational marketing post talking about grit, perseverance and “believing in yourself”. But if I said this was purely my own strength, I would be lying.
I was born with a cleft palate. I grew up deeply insecure about my speech. I hated presentations, avoided speaking up, overthought every conversation and constantly felt like I had to overcompensate just to prove my worth. There were so many moments in life where I bought into the opinions of others and the lies in my own head about my identity.
Even till today, before speaking on stage, the fear still creeps in.
“What if I mess up?”
“What if people judge the way I speak?”
“What if I’m not good enough to be here?”
"Can they even understand me? lol"
But God has been so gracious to me.
Because the truth is, left to my own strength, I would have never chosen this path. I would have stayed hidden in my insecurities. I would concur with every reality that was sold to me. Every platform, every opportunity, every breakthrough in my life has only been possible because of His provision and grace.
God didn’t wait for me to become perfect before using me.
He used me while I was still broken, fearful and doubting.
And maybe that’s the biggest lesson I’ve learnt:
Your insecurity does not define your identity. The voice in your head is not always the truth.
Sometimes the very thing you thought disqualified you… becomes the testimony God uses to impact others.
All glory to God. Always. 🙏
