09/24/2026
Chapter 6: A Place Among the Pines: Oliver Samuelson, The Whaler
I came to these woods to be alone.
My damn fingers on my left hand don’t bend anymore. Just the thumb and the little finger work, and they work overtime. The other three don’t work since the accident in Spooner. Tendons cut clear through. My fingers don’t work. And I can’t work anymore. I left everyone in Sweden and never did find people to call my own. I worked building railroad bridges when there was work, until my hand got too stiff to hold a hammer anymore. When I was younger, I worked on a whaling ship. It was dirty and hard, and heartbreaking, so I left home at 28, and came here to America for “opportunity”. I was tall and strong, my blue eyes clear and bright. I’d finished the eighth grade and had an idea I could have some peace and be on solid ground. A life at sea wasn’t a life for me. I learned how to drink and I learned how to swear, and I learned most how to feel homesick for a place you only dream of.
And now I found it, finally away from the town, from the people, and go fishing and sleep when I want to sleep. The other families out here don’t bother me much. There’s little ones who play in the trees and don’t think I see them watching, but I do. I must look like a bear to them, the tallest man they’ve ever seen, with more hair on my face than my head, and older even than their grandmother.
“Stay away from the whaler” she says, as though it were a warning to them, but I know it’s a kindness to me. “Ole…” she says softly when she stops by with some bread on quiet mornings, and I shyly wonder if I had raged the night before. My dreams are something terrible. Boys I know dying at sea. Girls I only ever saw, couldn’t speak to slipping away beneath waves. And understanding no one.
Coming to this country when you’re too well grown means never really learning how to talk to people. But that’s okay. I don’t mind. I have my wh***ey for cold nights, and chop the wood with my good hand. My stiff fingers work to prop the wood up. And I’m still strong. But I know my time here is ending, and I wonder how I will be remembered, and who will remember me?