12/25/2023
Im going through my photos from this year, and my eyes just swell with tears.
What a fu**ed up year? 😭I mutter to myself and As I swipe through the memories and the suppressed emotions flood back to me.
From where I’m sitting I can hear my mon strumming my dad’s guitar and singing on the back porch. She hasn’t picked up a guitar in a long time so it’s nice to hear/see her playing.
We have each been through so much the last few years. It feels like we button up one tragedy and we are met with the next.
For my mom, she has lost her son-in-law, her mother, her mother-in-law, her daughter, and her husband.
From my sister, she has lost her brother-in-law, both her grandmothers, her boyfriend, her sister, and her dad.
For me, I have lost my husband, both my grandmothers, my mother-in-law, my sister, and my dad.
And for Arabella she has lost her grandpa, who was the most
Loving father figure she has known.
The compounding loss has taken its toll on each of us. Sleepless nights, depression, anxiety, and GRIEF!
With each loss you are met with the reality that our time is so precious and it can be gone in the blink of an eye.
You are met with regret of not being present in the time you were given.
You are met with the sorrow that
Once again life has changed and it will NEVER BE THE SAME
Hug your people, tell them you love them, show up for them when they need you! Cherish the memories that are made and the love that is shared! And take your damn pictures I promise you will cling to them one day!
Photo Credit to .by.ali.hohn
