04/30/2019
This past Saturday night I sat on a beautiful spring evening, the darkened sky with still whispers of light and color had me mesmerized!
I was watching the valley lights dancing and helicopters that save people lives fly over the point of the mountain along with airplanes bringing people safely to their destinations, and cars (that look so tiny from up here) scurrying along the freeway, busy like tiny ants in their own little colony.
I got to thinking about those we have all lost way too soon. Knowing that today 2 years ago my dear friend and his family lost their Mother, who I had the honor of knowing and how I miss the talks & giggles we used to have, even though I only knew her a short time, our hearts were connected! I know her family misses her terribly & my heart aches for them.
And that when I awake in the morning, it would've been my husbands 57th birthday, how would the girls and I honor his memory this year?
These thoughts got me to wishing to see a falling star! Seeing a falling star to me has been a sign in some of my darkest hours that they are not as far away as it seems. And there is a undeniable sensation and you just know at that moment it had them written all over it!
I've been blessed with this sign the night we lost my sweet Mother-in-law Kay, to cancer in 2003. As we drove down the road from her house, I thought I've never seen one that was so right in front of our faces. And as our hearts were broken with sorrow, that light in the night sky reminded us that she was still watching over us. And that she was no longer in pain but at peace. It was comforting and peaceful like nothing we had felt before.
And then once again on the one year anniversary of losing Charla! We went down south to go camping with some friends, and as the evening fire (which our Charla loved) was dying down, and the darkness of the mountains surrounded us...there is was! Literally the brightest one I've ever seen! It took my breath away! It lit up the mountain as if someone had turned on a big flood light. And I could hear her voice in my head ..Mom! Please stop crying I am right here!
I felt like it was so close I could've reached out and touched it. In that somber moment, I wished that I could've taken it and put in in a jar, like I used to do with lightning bugs when I was growing up. And then I could look at it in the still of the night, whenever my heart ached for her as a reminder that she wasn't as far away as it seemed.
And then again I saw one, but this time it was a happy occasion. On my way to spend New Years Eve with my friend and his family. It was a completely different feeling. No sorrow or tears just a streak across the wintery night sky, to let me know I was in the right place. And I knew my angels were happy that I was having a glimmer of happiness again, after so many dark years.
But thought they were each different and had their own unique stamp on them. They all had one thing in common. PEACE! A peaceful feeling I feel only Heaven can grant.
And as I needed comfort this night the eve of Craig's birthday...here I was...wishing for that peaceful feeling, that has only come to me as a beautiful falling star! Truly a gift from Heaven!
This peace may come to you in other forms, as your Angels know exactly what it is that you alone need. I hope you find yourself wishing you could bottle it up and save it for the moments that you need PEACE.
All my love CharChar
