06/01/2026
*Picture of my late wife Jeannette and one of the neighbor kids on Halloween October 31, 2011
Why does the woman in this picture, and the Church named behind her, have to die?
Read through the Bible…II Chronicles 13-16/John 12
*Amen, Amen…Unless a grain of wheat is buried in the ground, dead to the world, it is never any more than a grain of wheat. But if it is buried, it sprouts and reproduces itself many times over. In the same way, anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life. But if you let it go, reckless in your love, you’ll have it forever, real and eternal. (John 12:24-25)
Jesus speaks not of the death of a church, but of His own death. It is no small matter. He will endure unimaginable suffering and shame. He will face that suffering entirely alone with accusers calling for His death and all of his followers silent in his defense.
Still, Jesus can see beyond his cruel death on a cross. He knows that His death will not be meaningless. He understands that He is a metaphorical seed in the purposes of God.
A buried seed can grow into a single plant that sprouts several stalks (called tillers), with each stalk producing a head containing roughly (30) to (50) grains. [1, 2, 3]
Jesus places His body, like a grain of wheat, in the hands of His Heavenly Father. The Father, out of love for the world, splits the seed up on a cross. Then God buries Him in a tomb.
Jesus must die (as all humans will). However, in His death He produces multiplied fruit. He must die before He is raised in glory.
Writing…
One day my new next door neighbor tells me, “I think God wants me to start a church in this neighborhood.”
I tell him, “Ben, there is already a church here (Fourth Reformed) and I’m the Pastor”
My conversation with Ben, half my age at the time, doesn’t end. The Church I pastor, however, soon does.
Why does Fourth Reformed Church after living in the Westcore Neighborhood for over 100 years have to die? When Pastor Ben first speaks to me, Fourth Reformed Church is holding her own. We are worshipping with perhaps 60-80 folks. Still, I sense, along with Ben, that God might want to do more.
Ben comes on staff for a quarter time. Jeannette and I travel around the country one week a month doing volunteer prayer ministry for the Reformed Church in America.
After less than a year, however, it becomes clear that Fourth Reformed is not getting any younger. In fact, we are getting smaller. We have served the city well. Still, it becomes clear to me, though not as clear to some of our leadership, that we need to prepare for a funeral and I need to officiate.
Why does Fourth Reformed Church have to die? Perhaps, it is so that BLVD Church can live.
Several months after Fourth Reformed closes, the Holland Classis “sells” what some estimate as a two million dollar facility to BLVD Church for a dollar.
Fourth Reformed dies in church birth. BLVD Church grows. We worship now with two services and are making plans for a third onsite or satelite worship service in the Fall.
Building…
I know every individual congregation like Fourth will someday die. I know every person will too. Still, in the case of my late wife Jeannette, I still wonder about the why of the when. Maybe you have similar questions.
Jeannette and her mother both get diagnosed with metastatic pancreatic cancer at 64 years of age. Why then, I wonder, when they are looking forward to enjoying the fruits of their labors and the blessings of more time with family?
I don’t know the why of the when. I see only through a mirror dimly right now (I Corinthians 13:12).
The death of Fourth Reformed Church allows me to invest in the last four years of Jeannette’s life. Her real estate business thrives, inspite of a brutal chemotherapy regimen. In addition to standard of care treatment, Jeannette also endures four clinical trials which we believe may benefit those who follow her. Jeannette welcomes her first grandchild, writes a “Storyworth” book of her life and inspires countless members of her family and friends.
Still, I have some arguments with God about Jeannette. I think she could have been more God honoring alive than dead (Psalm 6:5). Personally, I know that I would be more fruitful were she still here…love, joy, peace, patience… (Galatians 5:22-23)
It may be providential that the church closes so I can spend more time with Jeannette for her treatments…Still, I don’t consider it providential that those treatments, along with the prayers and support of countless friends, did not lead to her healing.
Why a Church dies. I am starting to see it.
Why Jeannette? In some ways, that’s still Greeks to me (John 12:20-21)