05/10/2026
This pain is unbearable!!!
I miss you so much, Mum. My heart breaks and aches for you every single day. People say time makes the pain easier, but for me, the ache only grows deeper with each passing day. I pray constantly and ask God to give me strength because I feel so weak without you here.
The house is quiet now, but somehow you still fill the air. In every little corner, I still feel you there. Your voice still echoes loudly, like it never learned goodbye, and I still see your smile when I close my eyes at night. You were fire and you were comfort. You were strength when life got hard, and God, I never truly realized how much of me was held safely inside your heart.
Mum, why did you have to go? I feel like I’m trapped in a vacuum with no air left to breathe. I keep trying to make sense of it all, but nothing about this feels real or fair to me. I cannot understand how a world can continue turning when you are no longer in it.
You left such a huge space behind, and I do not know how to live in a world without you. Everything around me feels dull now. The laughter is quieter, the days feel heavier, and I feel completely empty, lost, and alone. A part of me feels like it left with you.
My heart is forever broken — literally and emotionally. You were my comfort, my strength, my safe place, and now I am trying to figure out how to survive without the one person who always made everything feel okay.
How do I live without you, Mum?
I honestly do not know how.
Happy Mother’s Day to my world, my strength, my safe place, my greatest blessing, my hope, and my forever ride or die… my mummy, Pam.
There are no words big enough to explain how much I love you or how deeply I miss you. You were the heart of our family, the light in every room, and the one person who made everything feel ok no matter how hard life became.
I carry you with me in every breath, every memory, and every beat of my broken heart. Forever grateful that God chose you to be my mum.
I love you endlessly, Mum. Always and forever.
