03/21/2026
he’s 43, i liked him a lot (the guy in the back at the left lol), and i thought if he saw me working, saw my real life, maybe he’d get even closer to me yk.. thing i didn’t fully thought of is that i work with a co-driver too, he’s 54.. so it was supposed to just be all of us hanging out on the road for the day.. but the whole thing turned into something i still can’t get out of my head. my date slowly stopped paying attention to me and started paying attention to my co-driver instead.. like why tf you’re even here atp?? laughing with him more. talking to him more. looking at him more. the craziest thing is that in the MIDDLE of the shift- when it was supposed to be Pat’s turn to drive… i looked back and they were both asleep together in the bunk while i was the one still driving 🥴 alone. doing the whole shift with tears in my eyes. and right before going to sleep comfortably (with my co-driver!!), my date looked at me and said “you got this.” like i was just the driver. like i was some man taking them somewhere while they got to lay in the back. idk... it’s hard to explain how bad that hurt. 💔 i brought a man to work with me hoping he’d get closer to me and ended up driving two grown men around while feeling invisible…